Friday, March 29, 2013


I had a fun but exhausting day. My daughter's Kindergarten teacher talked me into participating for career day at her school. My topic, as you can guess, was being an equestrian professional. So I talked about horses for half of the day. I made a small video and had a couple of games and I think it went pretty well. The kids had fun and at this age most of them are pretty fascinated with horses so they were excited and good participators.

Also, in case you haven't seen it there is an awesome contest going on over on SprinklerBandits for a Riding Ninja shirt. They look pretty awesome and I want one! Check it out.

Jump Like A Ninja!

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Split Personality

Sometimes I feel like I have a split personality.

My birthday is June 19th which puts me right at the end of Gemini. (For the record I don't really believe in astrology but at the same time I have always felt like the Gemini persona fits me too well.)

Long story short: My wonderful, amazing, loving husband has offered, even tried to convince me to just go home for a few weeks. I think it is two parts love and one part I'm driving him and my family crazy.

It's so very tempting to get on a plane and just go home for a few weeks. (That could possibly be my understatement of the year.) I could see my horse, ride, go to Rolex, maybe even Equine Affair, the list goes on and on. It's so so so very tempting.

So what's the hold up?
  1. Money: Yes, technically we have the money but we are trying to put money into savings right now not take it out. 
  2. Mom: This is who I am right now and leaving my kids for a couple of weeks during the school year just doesn't sit well with me. (I would feel differently if it were for some kind of job or more "legitimate" reason.)
  3. Wuss Factor: Seriously I just have 10 weeks left. I definitely feel like I'd be a wuss to fly home now. (Although, to be honest I'm okay with being a wuss.)
  4. Selfish Factor: All of the above basically boil down to this one thing. I feel like it would be incredibly selfish for me to go home at this time.

Right now I'm about 75% sure I'm going to stick out these next 10 weeks but I am so thankful to have such a supportive husband who is willing to let me be a little okay, make that a lot, selfish sometimes.

A friend texted this photo to my sister yesterday. Right now I'll take any pictures I can get, dirty blankets and crazy faces and all.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

A Hard Right and Straight On 'till Dawn

I made my way back out to the barn today. I didn't realize how affected I've been by this whole thing until I was nearly there and my heart started hammering like a jack rabbit. (Mixed metaphor totally intended.) It's a horrible feeling, knowing you are right and also knowing that it does not matter. It is also very humbling and I will be the first to admit that I don't like it! And here I thought I was a "bigger" person. I guess we all suffer from pride to some extent. And boy howdy is my pride stinging!

It made me think about the difference between being right and doing right. I guess what I was thinking is that I would be "right" to simply wash my hands of the whole thing and nobody would blame me. But, at the same time it wouldn't be the right thing to do if I left my fellow instructors without help for the upcoming show (the reason I was at the barn today) even though I know they would understand. So I'm going to do the "hard right" and help with the show. Not that I'm trying to pat myself on the back or anything. I guess I'm just trying to psych myself up to the task at hand. I need to put my big girl breeches on and get 'er done.

And after that the dawn is coming (as corny as that is) and it is only about 72 days away. Just a week and a half and it will be April. I know that in just a few short months I'm going to look back on all this and realize I was stronger than I thought and the time was much shorter than I realized. (See all the psyching I'm doing?)
I'm dreaming of green grass and beautiful pastures.

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Bite Tongue Swallow Pride

I heard from my fellow instructor yesterday. It seems everybody knows that the payroll guy made a mistake, including the barn owner, or so I'm told. That didn't stop them from keeping my money from the past three weeks, though. But, they want me to come back. Oh, and if I could just apologize to the payroll guy that would be great.

I don't know all the ins and outs of the culture here but I do know that there is a huge emphasis on elders. The elderly are to always be respected so I am guessing that is the reason that nobody wants to actually fix this. I have no idea who this guy is in respect to the owner but obviously he is somebody important.

I have to admit I'm just not sure if I can do it. I just don't know if I even want to go back to the barn. I've already transferred all of my clients to the new instructor.  And after having a week off I've realized it's kind of nice. Not once this week did I have to see a sour horse or make a sour horse work even more than he already has. Sort of like burying my head in the sand if I don't have to see it/deal with it then it isn't happening.

On the other hand I do want to make sure that the other instructors/clients who are still stuck here don't have to deal with any fall out. So I will probably at least go to the barn and do what I can to smooth over what I can. After all I do still feel partially responsible for the whole fiasco. I've also promised to still help with the horse show. It's a big endeavor and I don't want to leave my friend's hanging.

But I think as far as actual teaching goes I'm done.

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Yes, Please!

In far more happy news Veronica Mars is going to be a movie!!!!

This is me:

It's like an early birthday present!
You can check out the Veronica Mars Movie Project on KICKSTARTER. They made their pledge goal of 2 MIL in just 10 hours! So it is definitely happening and I am very excited! BUT, the more money they have pledged the better the movie will be so I'm hoping the pledges keep coming. (I've already made mine!)

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Days Of Our Lives

I'm thinking about changing the title to my blog because apparently my life has become one big soap opera, or at least it feels that way.

What now?

Well, I am no longer teaching lessons at the barn here. In fact I'm not sure I will ever set foot on the property again.


To put it simply I got overpaid... basically the person who cashes us out gave me my lesson money and another instructor's money as well. I knew it was not right when I signed for it but I was in the middle of a lesson with a beginner student and I was very concerned about leaving her in the arena alone. I knew if I had asked to correct it first I would have had to stay there until it was fixed which could have literally taken forever. So I figured I'd sign for it then we could straighten it out later. The person who cashes us out left right afterwards so I took everything home.
Yeah, I don't make that much!

When I got home I figured out what money was mine and what belonged to the other instructor. I called her and let her know and the next day brought it out to her. We went over everything again and everyone was satisfied that it was correct.

Later that same day I got a call that the person who cashed me out thinks I took all of the other instructor's money. Which is correct, I did, because he gave it to me. But, what he thinks is that he didn't count the other instructor's money at all. He thinks I just took her money and that basically I made about twice as much as I normally do.

So I went back to the barn with all of my money. A and I put all of our money back together and gave all of it back. The cash out guy refused to take it and thus began a headache of an argument. Going back and forth. A and I went through the lesson log (we have to log every lesson we give) and added everything up and ALL of the money is there. But it doesn't matter. He refuses to believe it or to even go over the logs which is just so stupid! Why do we log these things if not to use it for just this sort of instance?
I feel like a bad guy!
So I left my money with A to hold onto until someone figures out what to do with it, about three weeks worth and I haven't been back since. There's no way I'm going to take that money while they think I stole from them! At this point even if they finally figure it out I don't think I can go back. I've simplified the facts a little bit here but that is the basic gist of it. I am so... I don't know what I am other than a huge pot of boiling emotions.

I do admit that it was a very bad decision on my part not to just have him fix it right away. I keep kicking myself over and over about it because it would have saved all of us a huge headache. What was I thinking? The guy who pays us just gets very impatient. He wants us to basically drop everything and do it on his time. I honestly didn't think it would be that big of a deal to sort it out later. Everything is written down and recorded. Even Yama, the Japanese instructor believes me. It's just ridiculous!
I would kick my own butt if I could!

Well, that is what is going on right now. I've already contacted all of my clients and let them know that I most likely won't be back and gave them the contact information for the girl who was going to replace me anyways. I have two months and three weeks to go. It shouldn't feel that long but it does.

I could go on and on about the whole horrible situation but this is already way more text heavy than I like. Besides anything else I say would just be depressing. So far 2013 is really sucking.
This pretty much sums up how I feel right now.

 All I really want to do is just see my horses, go for a trail ride, hang out in their stall, brush them, kiss them and then go to a tack store and hang out... for like hours. 

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Spring Show

I'm trying to get a plan together for our annual spring horse show over here on this side of the world. We had hoped to finally be able to use the middle of our arena for this show so we could actually do some dressage tests but alas that is not going to happen. It's so frustrating. For some reason they want to grow grass in the middle of the arena. They don't turn horses out in the arena so I have no idea why. We might get to start using it by next fall but of course that won't matter to me!

Anyways, we also have plans to construct another new small dressage arena out in the main pasture. The area it would be is already mostly covered in sand but right now the sand is about a foot deep and very uneven. It is going to take a lot of work to get it leveled out and to a proper thickness. I don't think we'll be able to get it done before the show in five weeks.

Sooooo I have to figure out what else we can do in place of dressage tests. I think we might just make it more like a hunter show where riders will ride together and be judged at the same time on their equitation. That's my thought anyways. I have about two days to get it figured out.

I did design this for the show, though:

Our show is right around Earth day so we decided to go with a green/recycle theme. I was thinking maybe we could have show entrants bring in something to recycle as part of their entry fee or something. I don't know yet...

Anyways, that is what is going on right now. My kids have started taking lessons with me from time to time and that has been fun. We're down to 12 weeks and counting. Still not soon enough but we're getting there.

Monday, March 4, 2013

Dog Days

I just posted this on facebook a bit ago so I figured I should share it here too. In approximately three months this will be my theme song:

Saturday, March 2, 2013


Sorry I have become so intermittent like one big game of peek-a-boo, now you see me now you don't!

What's been going on? Well, mostly just more of the usual; teaching, running my kids around and finishing up my online equine nutrition class. The class was pretty good. It was very much self-directed study but I do feel like I learned some things. Most of the class was just reinforcing things I already knew such as a forage based diet is essential for equine health but I did learn a lot of the whys behind the ways we feed, etc. I'm hoping this will make me a better horse Mom in the future, especially with Loki proving to be such a hard keeper.

Oh and I got new boots!

Ariat Volants! (and blingy spur straps with Stubben Soft Touch Spurs)

I love the boots! I took a chance ordering them b/c who knew if they would fit but Smartpak has such great customer service I figured it would be worth it. Even all the way over here on the other side of the world they would have let me return the boots for free if they hadn't fit! Love that company!

But luckily they seem to fit great. (I do have to wear boot lifts with them but that is pretty much par for the course for me!) I've been trying to wear them around the house for a couple of hours every day to get them broke in and so far they feel like wearing sneakers and half-chaps (mostly). Hopefully I'll get a chance to actually ride in them soon!

Oh and if you take a peek at the top right hand corner you will notice that we are in the double-digits!!! In fact we are under 90 days... and counting!